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Showing posts with label about this blog. Show all posts

May 28, 2011

no need for a jump-start

This post is the electronic equivalent of stepping into the dark garage and pulling the lightbulb chain.  There's the dusty, dropcloth-covered beater just waiting for some attention and TLC. 

Maybe after a few years of waiting, the ignition will turn on the first try.  Meanwhile, there's need of some updating...

It looks like we're going to move to another yet another shore (though significantly inland) sometime in late summer.

Hold on to your hats, it'll be a wild ride!

October 27, 2008

excuses, excuses!

Well, I have excuses, though not really very good ones...

A whole bunch of folks (TwilightLover, ClayJar & Creaturespirit) have left comments lately and I've hardly replied, I'm about two and half weeks (or more) behind in answering email (Tuyu, Sensei, Ruth, Tia)...

The first excuse is that my poor irreplaceable computer was having cooling fan trouble (you would too if you'd sucked that much dust up your nose!) and was badly in need of help. Thankfully, help was granted yesterday and its running a lot cooler now and I don't have to cringe when I turn the thing on, expecting flames to come blasting out.

The second excuse is that NaNoWriMo has had us all enthralled and our rationed online time has been pretty nearly consumed by that. We've been good, though, and haven't wasted our time on the forums (for the most part), though it was noted that there's an appropriately named thread on the forums called "NaNoWriMo ate my soul" - with help for those folks whose lives have been subsumed by novel plots and word count goals. Mostly we've just been planning and plotting and coming up with character sketches and maps of lands where wild adventures are going to occur come November. Wish me luck with keeping in touch in November, too...

The third excuse is simply a reason to ask for forgiveness from everyone - I go through phases where my introvert tendencies run strong and I go into a strange hibernation mode... with nary an email peep or a phone call from me. It doesn't mean I've forgotten you or am unhappy or anything other than overly caught in my own mind, assuming everyone knows that I'm thinking of them.

So, if you're expecting a reply, please keep expecting because eventually, knowing that you're expecting something will cause me to feel the pressure and I'll snap out it and send you a note or post something interesting up here.

But truly, I am thinking of you all!

June 03, 2008

speak your mind

I've been thinking, lately, about censorship.

Of course, when dealing with China, it's inevitable that the topic of censorship will come up, but state based, externally applied censorship isn't the only face of this creature, though it's highly relevant since I'm going to be publishing this blog from within China. In fact I felt the need to search out alternative plans to ensure that I'd still be able to access much of the internet in spite of the notorious controls in place. Thanks to a very generous friend, I have some options that should solve the problem that even Dan's experiencing lately (he can't access the blog at all right now - at least not reliably, which is the key to the puzzle.).

There are a number of articles, found by the most cursory of internet searches, that talk about how limited the "Great Firewall" of China is. When dealing with the Chinese state, and maybe this is true for any authoritarian leaning society, government placed restrictions metamorphose into internally generated restriction. Apparently, the strength of China's internet control lies not so much in any concrete, unimpregnable, permanent qualities, but more in the variable and unpredictable limitations, on the implied threat of penalty as much as a guarantee of any penalty at all.

In this Atlantic article, the author writes, ""Depending on how you look at it, the Chinese government’s attempt to rein in the Internet is crude and slapdash or ingenious and well crafted. When American technologists write about the control system, they tend to emphasize its limits. When Chinese citizens discuss it—at least with me—they tend to emphasize its strength. All of them are right, which makes the government’s approach to the Internet a nice proxy for its larger attempt to control people’s daily lives."

With such a huge population it wouldn't make logistical sense to have a constant condition under which every single person is under surveillance - though it may be the truth in the sense that electronic communications data, in particular, are simply stored for a later time should the need arise (much like what is done here of late). There's a distinction between surveillance and censorship, but for censorship to be broadly successful there must be some type of surveillance even if it's something as straightforward as requiring government approval of manuscripts submitted to a publisher. Like something out of Orwell's Nineteen Eighty-Four, China's attempts to monitor and control internet content "is supplemented by human censors who are paid about $170 a month. They sit at screens in warehouse-like buildings run by the Public Security Bureau. These foot soldiers in China's information war monitor domestic news sites, erasing and editing politically sensitive stories... Sensitive entries are erased, and in the most egregious cases blogs are shut down altogether." (from Wired)

The city of Shenzhen came up with a way to remind internet users (not just content providers) that they were also being watched. Their cartoon characters, Jingjing and Chacha, were modified for use in Beijing as well (awww, aren't they cute? How could you not think they have your best interests at heart after seeing their pictures?) and they apparently pop up on computer screens every half hour or so. An unnamed official is quoted in China Digital Times, saying, “The main function of Jingjing and Chacha is to intimidate, not to answer questions.”

I haven't done any historical study of the extent of censorship in China during the communist years, but anecdotally, I've found, as the Atlantic article suggests, that "the government's approach to the Internet [is] a nice proxy for its larger attempt to control people's daily lives." This is where the more insidious, hidden version, of censorship shows up - it's the censor made real in one's mind, created in a "culture of fear."

There's a lot of openness in China these days, and I don't mean to harp on the negative, but some years ago I recall bringing up one of those topics that crossed the invisible line in people's minds - and some of the older people with whom I was talking felt the need to close the front door, so the neighbors wouldn't hear, and they excused themselves from the conversation, leaving it to the younger generation to carry on.

A writer I worked with in 2003, stated explicitly that though there were topics he wished he could write about, he knew without doubt that they would never garner approval and thus, he was better off censoring his desire to cover those topics. He knew, without asking, what was acceptable and what wasn't. He said that it was difficult, wanting to write about what he believed in, when he wasn't allowed to believe in anything other than what was permitted. Unspoken, was the assumption that the responsibility of believing, and dictating the right kind of belief, lay with the government.

A writer Dan has been in contact with in the past is under house arrest, I just found out the other day (also via China Digital Times), and another spent time in prison some years back.

This is how that culture of fear is created. This insightful article explores that dynamic within an audience (comprising both Chinese and foreign guests) viewing the filming of a talk show episode and shows how easy it is to give in to self-censorship.

We will be careful, but I'm already fully aware that our information is processed and reviewed (a discreet way to say 'under surveillance') - on both sides. Maybe someday I'll tell you about the FBI visit. Fine, so be it. I actually give that less credit, though, than my own internal censor, the one who pressures me to present only culturally/socially approved messages, who would hogtie my writing so I appear presentable and "nice."

Personally, I'm not really interested in those sensitive topics, in and of themselves. I don't need to cause trouble or prove a point; I just have my regular life. But I'm a writer at heart and I pay a lot of attention to the process, so it caught my attention that my thoughts are coming out a bit stilted on this blog (at least so far, this post may just break the ice for me here) - and that's probably because it's the first time I've written for an audience who knows me. I'd like to overcome this internal censor, to write the truth of my experience in the coming year, so sometimes that means I'll be critical of China and sometimes it means I'll praise it (and sometimes it means I won't write about China at all, but about really random things). Americans often have strong opinions about China and Chinese people and I may have little regard for those assumptions. There's pressure from the US end of things to say certain things about Tibet, for example, but I'm not a mouthpiece for anybody's ideology - and the fact that I feel cornered is an indication that our society also engages in tactics that coerce people to censor their thoughts and conclusions (Dan's certainly found this to be true in academia).

For me in this case it's less a result of overt political "influence" and more that I'm trying to find a balance between my need to really dig into my experience and understanding of China, and to admit and own my opinions even if they're unpopular or incomprehensible, versus the "happy" way of glossing over what's difficult, keeping to the positive, and just showing vacation photos.

So I'll post the requisite number of vacation photos, but I'll also do my best to write honestly and unfettered.

April 14, 2008

Finally

I am finally getting around to mailing out the photo collage we like to send sometime around Chinese New Year. Just a month late... Better late than never, though, right?

I've started packing up books and papers and putting them in storage. It's amazing how I suddenly feel there's so little preparation time. Everything was mosey-ing along and then spring hit and now there's a million things to do and packing on top of it all. No sweat, I'll accomplish everything!

April 07, 2008

don't mind me

while I talk to myself and try to figure out some of the interesting things I can do on this blog...

I'm thinking of pulling some of the things from my old one (Davis Permaculture Users' Group), including some other things that've been floating around, and posting them here, so I can keep some of the info in one place. I know, it won't thrill the family members who just want to see pictures of the kids, but I'm kind of liking the idea of posting a whole variety of things here - and honestly I'll have a lot more fun if I can post about foraging and plants and the odds-n-ends of creative projects we do around here.

April 03, 2008

how to be a blogger...

or maybe I mean that with a question mark as I'm thinking this up as I type - I kind of played with blogging last year, but it was a quiet little deal that pretty much only I read. I look at it as though it was a practice run for this one.

Anybody who wants can join us in our soon-to-occur dive into China. Along the way it'll be proven just how crazy we are (not just in moving us all to China, but in general, we're kind of ....different).

It's strange to have a brand new unused blog open to any representation of ourselves that we want to offer - there are so many different levels at which one's life can be approached to make it understandable to others. For me, I probably need to ignore the "threat" of an audience in the early stage so I can become comfortable posting...

You'll notice there's a huge gap - exactly a year - between my last 2007 post and the newer ones. What happened was that Dan couldn't access the blog from Beijing. This was probably because I'd started it out as a "private" blog while it was being set up and somehow he couldn't get in even though he's a contributor. There's also the issue of China's censorship of blogger sites - though this week, when I removed the permission aspect Dan was able to view it just fine. I'd shelved the blog idea but now it looks like we'll have a workaround for the firewall (aka The Great Firewall of China) that allows the PRC to effectively block controversial and untested sites- so I should have access to everything I do here, thanks to someone I won't name since he's actually giving me server space at his work...

April 01, 2007

the first post

Everything is open at this point, like the first blank page of a journal, like the first line of a book before the story is even thought out... limitless possibility.

What follows are the thoughts and experiences of a family living overseas.